Today is the one-year anniversary of my diagnosis. It feels like a lifetime of experience in that one short year. Some years just come and go, unnoticed. Not this one. So what have I learnt? Cancer gets just anybody, with little rhyme or reason: smoker or non-smoker, organic vegetable eater or MickyD muncher, drinker, tea-totaller, old, young, spiritualist, hedonist and nonce- all the same. I also realize that there are many things in life (TV, media, peers, ourselves) that conspire to make us forget that this is our ONE LIFE – from cradle to tomb. We are led to believe that we can just quietly plod through our lives, property ladder, career path etc and not make a fuss, don’t rock the boat and just ignore the fact that THIS IS IT. No dress rehearsal, not even a sound check. What you are doing right now is what your life is. And I must shave away with Occam’s Razor any concepts of a reward system at the end of it all.
So here I am, one year on with D’s sword still dangling precariously above me, and it begs incessantly the question: “What are you going to do with your life?” It’s a tough one but I always know the answer: Live MY life with gratitude, creativity, love, irreverence, humour and wonder.
What are YOU gonna do? Best, milton
P.S. If you wanna nice surprise- go to your local magazine dealer and locate a copy of Guitar Techniques (Winter 2005)– Now who’s that new columnist on the CD cover?
Okay, from the site stats, it seems that many people check this page often. I also get messages from newly diagnosed people every day – which is somewhat humbling, and keeps me focused on the important things. So here is another update for anyone interested:
First off, I have been contacted by a doctor who wants to use my videos to train medical students. That is both flattering and amusing to me. Let us hope they are of some benefit to medical science(?) – I imagine they are more useful to patients than doctors but am happy to help of course.
Secondly, I am arranging an amazing evening of music on the evening of January 28th 2006. This will involve an ensemble made up of some of the best Classical and Jazz guitarists in the country (and me). They all said ‘yes’ which is great. Proceeds will go to a cancer charity. London venue to be decided, watch this space(or the space above) for all the details. It will be a fantastic event. If you would like to come, or offer support in any way; then just let me know.
Thirdly, I am off to the states (Dallas, Texas) in December to play some jazz and blues gigs with my old college friend, David Karnes. If you live in the area, why not come see me? These will be my first performances post-Cancer, so I am looking forward to it, but now concerned about missing Xmas and new year with Bridge. hmmm..
I’ll sign off as I am absolutely swamped with things to do. More soon. Thought for the day: It is not what happens to us, but how we react to those events that defines who we really are.
Ta-ra for now, Milton